2/3

2/3 to 6 months. That’s where I am today, this is where we are together. 1/22/2021 was my pubic fusion (pubic ORIF) surgery and my next appointment to check healing progress is on 7/21/2021. 

2/3 is a tough place to be. I have come so far, yet there is still a ways to go. 2/3 is a time to take a breath and brush my teeth before a fresh push to the finish. 2/3 is a time to lean into my anchors.

Writing

You’re waiting with me, suffering through savoring the wait through my daily writing.

Writing has become one of my anchors.

Writing gets me out of bed early every morning, a piece of my overall goals.

Writing is my peaceful time of clarity before anyone else gets up.

Writing during this time of healing takes me out of my silo of isolation and insulation.

Writing is singing into a fan for all the world to hear.

Purpose

I didn’t mean for this to happen when I began. Writing was primarily a grasp at sanity and understanding as I worked through the post-op haze, desperate for something to ground myself with and re-establish flow. Writing was my way of assigning words to what I was experiencing, seeking comprehension.

Labels, ramblings, rumblings, these have grown into a full-fledged project of daily writing into and through it all.

2/3 to 6 months, I’m working on ways to grow this even further, to deliver on my desire to make this count and serve others. I’m on a mission!

Who knew when I started that it would grow into this? Not me. But I want it now and the universe is conspiring to make it happen.

2/3 to 6 months, this new anchor has taken my focus off the long wait of my physical healing. The daily work required for my healing is always done, with intense focus, but the mental weight of it has been replaced by the focus on writing, sharing, and spreading joy.

Ownership

2/3 to 6 months, I keep on writing. The healing will happen, the next surgery date will arrive, the daily allergic reactions will end.

I’m owning my story rather than allowing others to write their own versions of me. I’m defining the meaning of this story and offering it to you as an idea to add to your own story. And I’m creating my own new ending.

Roxane Gay calls this “writing into the wound.” She says that in order to heal we need to expose our wounds fully, while in the midst of it. She urges us all to write our way through our traumas.

2/3 to 6 months, I understand the value of this urging. My deep drive of gratitude for the gifts has me bubbling with excitement every morning. I cannot wait to open my writing app on my iPad and see what ideas and words come tumbling out. Each day that I write is another piece of healing, another opportunity to share with you, and another step towards recovery and embracing the finish line to these years of surgeries, healing, and integration.

With clean teeth and fingers on keys, I’m embracing my 2/3 today!

How do you approach 2/3?

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