Over three weeks post-op, I’m savoring every second of this recovery. It is so different! I am so different! Not as in compared to my life ever, but more like I’m back to myself prior to the plate and six screws going in on 1/22/2021. There was an immediate shift that day that I didn’t understand as fully as I do now that I have experienced this shift back into me.
Photowalk
First, I’ll explain the photographs in this post. Willa has returned to homeschooling (we are so thrilled!!) and this morning she and I went on a photowalk around our yard. I’m teaching her to use my first DSLR camera, purchased when Mason was just a baby. We had so much fun shooting anything and everything that was interesting to us. For me, I set out with just one lens, a manual Lensbaby Velvet, and I set an editing rule of no more than 30 seconds per image – a stark contrast to my normal never-done-for-days-or-years editing style. Just go, girl! There’s no such thing as perfect!
Back to my story…
Energy Alignment
The most profound difference is my energy alignment. Having that toxic metal in me right at the base of my pelvis, in my root chakra, threw off my energy completely. Not only did it create a huge blockage but it also felt like it caused my energy to bounce off of it, reflecting in wrong ways, crossing paths, creating so much internal interference. Now, I feel aligned and like I am resonating fluidly.
I woke up completely wrong and in my own personal Twilight Zone on 1/22/2021 and then woke up completely right on 9/6/2022. That’s a long time to be in such a weird, discombobulated, unhealthy space.
Beats
During my time of wrong, I felt like my body had sound wave beats. Two very close, but not quite the same, frequencies, caused by the interference of two waves at the same point in space. Sometimes the waves lined up but most of the time they were misaligned. Energetic double vision and conflict.
It sounds like this:
This was definitely closer to a subsensory level thing than an in-my-face clash like the audio above, but it affected my whole being every single day, 24 hours a day.
Yuck~!
I knew something was different because of the metal, but I had no idea the extent of it.
Physically Different
Just three weeks in, I already am able to do things I never, EVER could at any point after the last surgery. For example, last night I slept with my bed completely flat and with no pillows shoved every which way. I can’t remember the last time I was able to do that comfortably!
- I now pass the Self-Pedicure Test – I can sit on the bathroom floor and curl my legs in to take care of my feet as comfortably as I could when I was a little kid. It might seem silly, but to me it is HUGE!!
- I also pass the Lotion Legs Test – I can put a foot up on the edge of the bathroom counter to apply lotion to my legs. Both sides!
- I am not quite ready for the One-Legged Standing Leg Shave Test because I don’t want to put that much pressure on the healing joint space quite yet, but that will be another milestone.
Overall, I have so much more symmetry and ease and I haven’t even started PT or done much more than extremely gentle movements.
Mentally Different
My mental state and mood, oh my GOSH! I knew the metal was an irritant but the gift of the sudden shift back to me has really illustrated just how profound the irritation was! It took more energy than I realized to have patience, feel settled, enjoy things – it was like I had an invisible low-level mosquito buzzing around in my brain, slowly driving me more and more nuts.
Curiously, my interests have shifted. Big life passions for sure, but even as small as podcasts I want to listen to. Book topics. I think the metal toxicity drove me to seek a fix so hard that I grabbed at everything everywhere. I feel a huge sense of letting go of so many of those interests now.
The big life passions I’m setting aside for now. Some of this might be due to the sudden shift in activity level/lack of workouts and accompanying endorphins. Time will tell. But I am definitely drawn back to previous passions – the joy in our photowalk and resultant images is proof positive.
More images coming soon, Willa’s included.
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David
Carey, I am so glad this time has come to you. When I read this post, I smile. The changes are so profound! Love and light.