It’s been very quiet around here. I’ve been patiently and quietly biding my time healing while also homeschooling two kids, momming, wifing, progressing my workouts, life. In order to succeed at all of those things, my writing had to take a seat. But today I’m here! And yesterday I was in Boulder for my six month post-op visit…
Are you sitting down?
We did a new X-ray and it looks like this:
While it may look like a mess to the untrained eye, there is real progress here. There are bony bridges forming.
So much so that Dr. Mei-Dan told me to go live my life. I’m cleared to move how I please, even begin to run very gently.
SERIOUSLY!!!
24 hours later, I am still beside myself, not sure what to do other than rejoice! There is still plenty of healing to go, but I am FREE!!
I feel like I have just been released from 5 years of my own personal prison and don’t know what to do with myself now. My head has been spinning with all of the things I’m now free to do. All of the things that I can now do with my 7 year old daughter – this all began when she was 2 years old, so she doesn’t know a mom that can do all the things. This is important! All of the things we can do as a family now.
Last night I could barely sleep and never went back to sleep when I woke up at 2am. I felt like a kid on Christmas Eve! It gave me plenty of time to think through this all and realize that the dawn I have been feeling lately is indeed here.
After all this time! After all these surgeries and setbacks and problems and bizarre complications. This is finally real.
No more NO
These past five years have been an endless parade of NO. Limits on physical abilities primarily, but this extended into every part of my life. This left me unable to have much fun since my version of fun is active and full of adventure. It left me on the sidelines, watching my family have fun. I had to tell everyone else NO a lot – I can take you but I can only watch, or worse, no we can’t go at all. No vacations. Rare family outings. No no no no no no. What a life buzzkill! I basically put myself in a castle of NO surrounded by a moat and no drawbridge. I put up barriers both physical and emotional. As cheery and positive as I’ve been through all of this, my NO castle was my way of retreating to handle it all.
And now I’m ready to get me a dragon and fly on out of there forever! I’m ready to say YES and have fun and be a beacon of light and joy in my family again.
Six Months Post-Op
12 surgeries for the hips and pelvis over the course of 5 years. Three ankle and foot surgeries and a baby over the course of the previous 5 years.
CHECK
Six months post-op (number 12), it is finally time to move forward!
And, it is time to rewrite the opening post of this blog before getting to the business of writing the in-between posts from this past year. There is a lot to share and the long waiting game is nearly over! Now to continue to let this sink in – this is a LOT to take in suddenly. I hope you will celebrate with me!
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Dad
Now U know what it was like to take all U kids sledding and skiing only to watch the action…cuz I was self employed and the finances could not stand to have me hurt and not working.
Carey Martin
I remember the exact sledding run that brought you to that decision, right at the bottom of the hill. It made a permanent impression. We were even talking about that moment here the other day. Huge respect for making that decision willingly!
David Martin
Run Forest Run. I loved the Gump reference. Go get it Carey. You’ve earned the joy you’re feeling 😍
Carey Martin
Thank you!